Silent tears

Oftentimes others don’t notice when the tears are flowing because we’ve been accustomed to hiding our feelings, at least I have.

As I’m going home from visiting family and I hear my teens giggling (and arguing) in the back and my hubby is driving, I can’t help but to let the tears silently fall! Im not mad they don’t notice, because then I’d have to explain why I have them to begin with. And sometimes, tears aren’t explainable! They just happen. Sometimes for no reason, sometimes for a heavy burden, and sometimes because the demands of life hit you at once and its too much to take.

For me specifically, I miss my mom. She was my best friend and she loved the Christmas season. But her sickness and ultimately her death brought a lot of separation for my family. My dad passed when I was a baby, so there’s that. And although I have 3 siblings, only 2 of us have a relationship.

There ARE other things that weigh me down……..

Depression

Anxiety

The unknown

And I 100% take the steps I can, but when those steps aren’t enough, the silent tears fall!

I feel the need to tell you……STAY!