Man! I will often title a blog even though I don’t really know exactly what I want to say! When I came back to start this blog-the title hit me like a ton of bricks! Betrayal sucks no matter what! No matter how it happened! No matter who all was involved! Regardless of every circumstance that surrounded the ultimate sever of ties, it sucks!
Just recently I’ve had people cut the strings of (what I thought was) a friendship. I have had some straight up deep conversations with them, but in the end, it proved to be one sided! My heart hurt and I most definitely cried! I didn’t really (and still don’t) understand the WHY behind their actions. And even as I’m typing these words out, I’m still not positive as to WHY they (yes plural) have chosen to turn and walk away from what I had to offer–loyalty!
I think when you put yourself on the line in a friendship, and your efforts aren’t reciprocated it hurts a little more! I’m kind of one of those people who will love with everything in me and I hold nothing back! So when I open up to someone–I plan on being besties for life! Unfortunately, this is why I get burned! Apparently not everybody I cross paths with is going to stay in my corner! And yes, I would be completely naive if I expected that from EVERY SINGLE PERSON! BUT, what about those people who sabotage my good intentions?!?! Those are the ones I’m talking about!
At this point I’ve had to remind myself that when others aren’t appreciative and choose to betray my good intentions, it really is okay to walk away! Walking away doesn’t mean that I do or have to harbor harsh feelings, it simply means that I choose peace! I choose me! I choose to not chase after those who have shown me that I’m not worth their time! Does it hurt? Sometimes! Will it be the end of all things?! Hell to the no! The sun will continue to rise and fall, and in the end, someone who truly appreciates what I’m willing to hand out WILL come along!
I don’t know about you, but I don’t really like cycling through people to see which ones will be faithful! I dont like random people knowing my business and I just straight up hate having to tell my story again and again just to try to “bond” with someone I don’t really know! I’d almost rather do without a friend at all! Really! Because I have no problem watching Law & Order on repeat, and being social is not a top priority these days! But nevertheless, realizing that I truly put my time and energy into conversations that end up being dead ends……sucks! A lot sometimes!
So hear me out—-it’s okay to walk away!it is okay and normal to not play the games anymore! And it is okay to no longer accept the behavior of someone who has betrayed you!!! Hold your head high and know your worth!!!
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