STORY OF MY LIFE!
M.I.S.U.N.D.E.R.S.T.O.O.D
I can’t put it any plainer or simpler!!! It doesn’t matter if I tell you a life story from my childhood, my tween years, my teenage years, young adult, or full blown adult (age 41), I have always FELT misunderstood! I literally could buy you pizza and beer just because and it would no doubt be used against me! Or I could go days without having a conversation with someone and I would be considered a mean girl–happened recently! Like no joke yall! I’m tired! I’m tired of drama! I’m tired of ugly! I’m tired of worrying about what others say, think, or feel! And I’m most definitely tired of being misunderstood!!!!!
Now if you follow me at all then we both know I do crazy things! So I’m sure I have my haters on here already trying to make sure that E’rebody knows/thinks that I “get what I deserve”! But do I? Do I have to live with consequences from my bad choices for the rest of my life?! Because yes, I’ve caused A LOT of self inflicted pain that wasn’t necessary whether it be by my actions or words! Guilty, I’ll admit! But whatever happened to giving someone “the benefit of the doubt”?!?! Why are we (guilty as well) still “assuming” that people can’t, don’t or won’t change? And I get it……..some people absolutely choose NOT to better themselves! But what about those of us who do?! How many times do we have to “prove” ourselves before others stop misunderstanding us???
And listen, I am not innocent of continuing to judged others by their past! But I really am trying to stop dwelling 1. In the past and 2. On the negative. In my own life (first and foremost), as well on what others have done–speficially when it pertains to me! But I’m losing a whole lot of patience with the ones who praise Jesus on Sundays, but continue to gossip and treat others with disrespect Monday through Saturday all because…….they can! Or because they misunderstand me! And yes I am a Christian through and through! Am I perfect…….we already know that answer! But on a WEEKLY basis I am around some pretty cold hearted folks who forget that they too, are imperfect! And it is these people who make me question my very own existence, because afterall, my ways are not their ways, therefore I am misunderstood!!!
All I really want is a fresh start! From everybody! Starting with my husband and my kids! From my blood family to my frinemies! I just want, NO I NEED peace! I need others to know that I’m really not this horrific person who has nothing better to do than to see how I can tick you off! I have been that person—but I’ve moved on and I so wish that others would too!
And I imagine that everybody who reads this has been on one end or the other! I mean, perhaps there truly are those angels on earth who doesn’t judge and usually doesn’t get judged…..but I’d be willing to bet, that most of you can relate to being misunderstood! And the things is, the reason why you have been or maybe you still are misunderstood doesn’t even matter! Your feelings matter, and I’m here to tell you to use your voice! Don’t continue to walk around defeated because you are misunderstood–if that’s how others choose to view you–that’s on them!
Enjoy Every Moment 